Hey hunnie, I'm going to say right off that back. I'm sorry.
I never meant to say the things I did. They hurt to even
thing them, I can't believe I said that, but when you said
some of the things you did, I had to respond, I only knew
how to respond with anger and more insult. I'm sorry, really
I don't want us to end like this, infact I don't want us to
end at all. I've never wanted to leave you. Baby, I just get
so darn frustrated with us, and the fact that I feel that
there's no effort put into us, it makes me feel a little
un-loved. And I get so worked up because I want you to do
something about to to show that you love me. I want you to
start trying like I want you to try. I want you to love like
I want you to love. I am so depressed all the time because
I feel like you'd be doing everything you could to try and
get here. But it justs comes off like you're not. I really
want us to work out, but I've given all I can given, and
then some, I need something back now. I've been wanting to
talk to you about this seriously for quite some time now. I
am sooo beyond angry and frustrated. I don't think I can
take it anymore. I really honestly want you here. I'm sorry
If I'm being selfish but I do. I want you all to myself. &
I want you to want me just as bad as I do. I just don't
know what to do anymore. I'd love to talk to you on the
phone right now, believe me. But it appears that everytime
we talk, we argue about everything. I'm soo damn serious
whe I say this. We have got to stop fighting and bickering
Oh my lord, I am so finished with that. It burns my heart
to argue with you. The yelling and the screaming and the
mean words. I know you hate it too, but not as much as me.
God I just wish that you and I were on the same page. I
really want you to be thinkin' like I am. I wish your mom
would get off our backs and stop interfering. I hate when
she's on our backs. You know something baby, I've never
doubted that you wanted to be here, but for some reason
Your efforts and recent moods have told me differently.
Chris, no one is physically holding you back, your family
might be temporarily mad, but they're not going to
permanently dis-own you if you fallow your heart. Who
cares if they get a little upset for the time being, they
will get over it; promise. Because you 'want' this. Don't
you see that your mothers' grip on our relationship on our
relationship, is suffocating. And sooner or later she's
going to cut off our air supply forever. I refuse to let
anyone but you and me to control our love. It's wrong to
let anyone do that to anybody in the first place. But
that is how I feel about what your mom is doing. Has our
love oin her hands. And you're letting her. I love you
way to fucking much to let anything happen to you. And
I would really like for you to accept my appology, and I
am more than willing to accept yours if you please show
me proof that there's some for of progression. You know?
I am so sad with our situation. I know this is getting
more and more annoying by the day, but we would no
doubt have any problems if you would treat me like I
treat you, or believe in us like I believe in us. Why
don't you just give it your all if you want this so bad?
I am so tired of just waiting around for you to so some
thing about this. I mean arn't you sad? depressed? tired?
pissed-out? violated? If you're any of those you have
every right to stand up, and you must to save this
relationship. I can't do this whole next year without
you by my side. I need you. I feel like I don't have you
anymore. I just don't know. I have to have my baby. I
am so on edge without you right by my side. God please
please please I'm begging you. Please try. I am on my
knee's here. I need this. I need you. I need us. Please
don't give up on us. Push...for us. I love you so much
more bigger than the sky. I need you in my life. Please
Please fight side by side with me. Omg I love you. -Breanna
